5/9/06

// feeling :: tired but refreshed
// prayer for :: Bryan's test tmr

Today was a bad but also good day for me. The morning turned out quite bad, and I had to turn to Bryan and my mom for advice. In fact, they're the reason I'm not mad at him right now..

So the rest of the day was pretty bad for me. I was feeling so awful and lousy that I did everything I could but didnt find happiness in any. I watched anime, played Maple, chatted online, went to cut hair.. [I like my hair though]

Actually thought of meeting Bryan for pool cuz I didnt want to go home and start moping ard the house, but we decided Thursday would be a better day.

Went home with my sister and went to buy dinner. Then after that my head was in a mess and I didnt know what to do; what was the next step to take. So I msn-ed Bryan and just told him that I was confused. I just didnt want to be alone tonight. He called me..And when he knew I was upset, he immediately dropped everything and drove down to my place.

I didnt expect it. I thought him accompanying me on msn or even on the phone was alr very good, much less coming down to meet me at such a late hour. I walked to Tiong park at ard 9 plus and waited for him there. He bought some bubble tea for me too...

I thought I'd have a lot to say to him, but when I saw him, all fret and worry was gone. I felt at ease and a sense of peace. We talked about it, talked about God, talked about our past lives...We realised that..It took us 2 years to recover from our breakup and come back together as good friends. I wonder how long it would take for us.

What Bryan did for me was extraordinary. Not something that other, normal friends would do. He has school tmr and even a test...

He gave me this special analogy: there are a lot of trees near our area. If one were chopped down, would the others fall too? I took some time to get what he was trying to say.

Even if one tree was down, the rest would still stand. I would still have many people around me who care about me.


Its strange how people are. "You dont miss your water till the well is dry". Its true. It sucks, but its true.

Did a lot of pondering these few days. But Bryan had been an exemplary friend to me. A friend I should have been to him when he was down and out.. Oops =x sorry!

He reminded me to be God-looking. I lost my focus in God after this. Dangerous, dangerous. It will never happen again...